Me at 7 months pregnant
” of course I’ll come back to work after maternity leave, ill be going mad at home”
Me at 3 months from birth of child on returning to work
“Back to work? but I’ll miss everything, first steps, words, .. And after paying child care I’ll be earning Ramen Noodles.. so whats the point?”
But, my personality requires me to need some adult conversation .. and not just from my husband. Plus I prefer our bank account to be positive not negative so off to work I went and off to daycare my son went. It went OK for a while. But as I talked about in a previous post, I pulled him and he stayed home with grandma. It was great and at the time was the best thing for him.
But he is getting older now and more active. Preschool is less than a year away. And as an only child I want him to understand that there is a word called “share” and yes you have to….
So a month ago he started daycare again. New place. New people. A highly regarded place that I had been trying for 8 months to get him into. I knew there would be an adjustment but man, separation anxiety is real and really hard to deal with. The crying….I had to force myself to walk away on drop off’s and I would get into my car and be on the verge of tears that I was messing my kid up for life. And then in the evenings when we picked him up he would come running to us faster than a cheetah after their dinner and would clutch onto us for dear life less we got the idea to leave him there…..and again the mom guilt would chime in big time.
But this week it is finally starting to get better. He is adjusting. The place we have him at is great and he will learn so much there. He is starting to like it and the teachers are telling us he is doing so well.
But man, this past month has been hard. When you have a kid they should come with a warning sticker that says “Buckle up buttercup. The ride has just started and there WILL be bumps in the road. And vomit every once in a while. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”